try try again...

i've been keeping to the vitamin/water/veggie thing and i'm feeling a whole lot better. no more crap food for me, thank you. :)

i'm joining the gym today and finally signing up... i had a reason not to go yesterday, though! i just sent in my rent check and i got paid today. so, no $$ = no membership. tee hee. here i come - leaner, meaner joy! :-P

no running, but there's a gym membership in my future...

very exciting i just found out i can go to the gym @ the school for the next 3 months at the whopping amount of... get this... $85! ooh baby. i'm signing up today. can't wait.

so other than that, it is 11:15 and i haven't had my morning coffee yet! woo hoo! maybe i can kick the coffee habit this year... been drinking tons of water, got my vitamin, ate my yogurt & granola bar. and last night i did all veggie, even with fried pork and roast duck (my FAVORITE) sitting right in front of me. tee hee... yay! going back to my good habits. hopefully these habits will work quickly. i'm wearing pants from 2 years ago which i recall were basically falling off my body. now i'm on the brink of squeezing into them...

but i won't let that stop me! i need to remember these two things:

• jason and kaitlyn's wedding is in september, and
• you're going back to hawaii in december!

must be skinny!!!

today's doings...

my vision is anew... i have successfully

• limited myself to one cup of coffee
• had 3-16oz containers of water
• had my vitamin
• ate a salad for lunch

i guess i feel better. i think i'd feel even better if the workday was over. ;)

a promise to myself....

i promise....

• that for every day that i don't go running, i will penalize myself $5 which will be donated to the memorial sloan kettering cancer center in honor of my father. the current balance is $20.
• that i will take a vitamin every morning and drink at least three (3) 16-oz bottles of water a day, with an intake of only one (1) cup of coffee a day.
• that i will no longer eat the following items: beef, pork, chicken, duck. i will supplement my diet with nuts, soy, gluten and fish.
• i will eat more vegetables. fried tempura does not count.
• at lunch, every other day, i will go walking for 1 hour. off days are wednesdays (knitting) and fridays.
• i am no longer allowed to each chinese food for lunch. if chinese food is ordered, only sauteed spinach with brown rice or soup is allowed.

i think that's it. for now, at least.

motivation beginning, but body slowing

ok, the motivation is there. this weekend, i'm going running twice. i don't care. my body is junking out on my, though. i have no energy anymore, i'm always tired. its probably what i pump in my body every day. that's it, i'm going to start charting my eating. sorry to put you through this, but i figure it's go, no?

today, thusfar:
coffee
1 cup special k cereal

16 oz water

yesterday
coffee
16 oz water
1/2 order of bean curd w/ veggies in garlic sauce & brown rice
chicken & broccoli, white rice
2 gatorades
an ice cream bar

wow, i eat HORRIBLY. today, more salad, less chinese. damn. and a vitamin in the morning. i'm obviously lacking something.

it didn't happen... again!

goddamn it. i am the absolute worst when it comes to this "activity" thing. i think i'm going to bring some running shoes to work and just jog for an hour during my lunch break every other day or something. because god knows, i can't wake up in the morning, and i most definitely can't get myself to go anywhere at night. *sigh* go here because i have some ranting to do.

motivation down the toilet

i got home from work yesterday exhausted bc i had only slept 2.5 hrs the night before. jedi came over and we had dinner and watched some tv, and i passed out at 1:30 (god knows why). woke up late today as usual, and now at work thinking about the idea of getting up in the morning to get running out of the way. *sigh* i USED to do it. i USED to wake up at 6 am to go to the gym and run for an hour... let's try again tonight, i guess.

dear lord, please make me motivated

from the rant to the run, i'm going to get my ass moving, dammit. helll, i think i talk about it enough.... lol. here's the link: honolulu fun walk so, i promise myself i'm going to go for an hour long jog tonight.

dammit!