how bad do i want it?

i'm beginning to question that. no matter what i try to motivate myself, it's absolutely impossible to get myself to go out before or after work. i feel as if i'm being pulled 15 different directions, it's making it absolutely impossible to fit in working out. i need to become structured again. *sigh*

i tried my bike the other day, and it totally cut right into my crotch that i was completely uncomfortable. my bro moved it down another inch by taking off the rear reflector, but it's still too high... :( maybe god's telling me i should never ride a bicycle?